Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang. I am SO diggin’ on some Jefferson Airplane right now:
I’m so full of love I could burst apart and start to cry/Today everything you want, I swear it all will come true/Today I realize how much I’m in love with you/With you standing here I could tell the world what it means to love/To go on from here I can’t use words, they don’t say enough…
Thank you LSD.
Anyway, back to the story I was telling yesterday. We talked about colors for a little while, and about how I am always skeptical of “spiritual” or mystical things and think that coincidental things happen/given notice because of confirmation bias or a self-fulfilling prophecy situation. BUT, I also wish I was more in-tune with my intuition/instinct, etc. I told them that I always second-guess myself and doubt/drown out my feelings with thoughts. Whenever I travel somewhere new, like to a friend’s house, doctors office, pub, whatever, even if I look up directions beforehand, I get lost. I often go one direction against that faint inner calmness and self-assurance, and my destination ends up behind me. I’m probably making myself nervous about it and then in the moment it just synergizes or something. Well, I spend the rest of my evening chatting with them and then go home, smoke a joint, and go to sleep.
Tuesday my host mother comes home…from somewhere…and announces that she is going to a “paranormalavond[evening]”: “I wanna go!” So we both freshen up our make-up and help bathe the kids, then head out.
When we get there, we have to buy a ticket (6€) with a number. There is a table with like 30+ little stacks on them. Each stack has a rune card, a medicine card, a tarot card, and two other cards with symbols that I haven’t yet Googled. Each person has to pick a spot at random and place their number and a personal item on top of the stack. Most people have left some jewelry, but I don’t really like/wear very often jewelry, so I leave my MAC Ruby Woo on some random pile.
Aaaaand the story will be a 3 parter, because my brain can’t function anymore. Goodnight.